The Scatterbrained Deist

Yay! I came back to write another post before a month went by! I try to think of this as therapy, but I do still censor myself for fear of who might read it. But anyways, this is not a secret post. Last time I told you that DH (aka Gelly, he hates that) said we could start TTC if he gets promoted in August and that is his only criteria (whoo hoo! *fingers crossed*). I may or may not have told you that we've had our kids' names picked out almost since we got married (Aidan for boy, Raine for girl; I'm pretty sure I've mentioned this). I also may or may not have mentioned that I work at a child development center and am currently working on my own promotion (whoo hoo! with much less enthusiasm). Well, because I am what we call a "floater", I can be in any room depending on who called out or is on vacation. As a result, and because I'm just good at my job and have a memory like an elephant, I know every kid in the center and to tell you the truth, the three A...

First off, I know, I know. I am horrible at blogging. Maybe I need to make a reminder in my phone to write a new post every week. I have to start forming good habits... Anyways... what am I so excited about you ask? Baby fever! But it's not really just me this time. Nigel has agreed that we can start trying to conceive if he gets promoted. We won't find out until August, but I am just squirming in my seat trying to control myself. I asked my husband if he had a list of things he wanted to do before we had a baby and he said no, he doesn't think of babies that way. When I asked for clarification, he said that he doesn't really believe that babies prevent you from doing stuff that you want to do. I tend to agree with him. I feel bad for people that think of having children as a burden and a hindrance to their fun life. And I greatly respect those that include their kids in the things they find fun (of course I'm not talking drinking and partying hard). Around here in...

I was talking to Nigel and doing a little reading around the all-knowing and all-powerful Internet (All Hail). And I remembered an idea that I had back when I was in high school. I loved magazines, but I never subscribed to any because there wasn't enough in any of them that I could truly relate to. So I came up with the idea of starting a magazine for black teen girls. My mom thought it was a good idea, but like every idea I come up with, I didn't follow through. I couldn't think of a good name. But as I was reading an article on things that guys don't understand about women and reading some of the things off to my husband, he commented on some stuff that he doesn't understand. We realized that the concerns that he had that were not on the list were related to black women. I thought that maybe I should start up a site where black people could read about sexual and relationship concerns that they could relate to. Then I remembered my old idea about a magazine for b...

Ok, that might be a little harsh on myself. I do know I am beautiful (even if there are some things I'd like to change) and I have a sense of style (I just don't really have any actual style). So sometimes on our weekly constitutionals to Borders or Barnes and Noble, I'll grab a beauty or style manual and actually learn something! My makeup regimen (if you could call it that) consists of applying eyeliner and/or mascara every blue moon... and that's being generous. I don't even own any cream foundation. I do have a Bare Minerals kit that I bought years ago before I even met my husband and it's just a one-size-fits-all starter kit for the melanin-blessed. I have a pot of powder blush by Bare Minerals also and the only brushes I have are the two that came with that kit. I grab cheap eye shadow every now and then and never use it. It doesn't help that every time I put makeup on my husband gives me the "ugh, are you wearing makeup?" comment. I am ver...

I am a terrible blogger. I'm hoping to get better at it and use it as some sort of anxiety therapy. Anyways... I have, of late, been stricken with baby fever. I work at a child development center and love the babies and toddlers (preschoolers, not so much, but I'm sure I'd love my own). I talked with my aunt and she acted as a dosage of Motrin to my fever. I knew it would subside eventually anyway, but she was very helpful. I have several reasons for wanting to get pregnant now, some good, some.... not so good. I'm comfortable with children. I want to have one of my own to raise and teach and show the world. My friends are starting to get pregnant (the not-so-good reason). My husband and I agree on most parenting tactics. I've been looking into the attachment parenting discipline. I'm fascinated, but I think sometimes people take it a little too far. I do want to breastfeed without having to supplement with formula. I know it's not as easy as one would hope ...

Welcome, everyone to The Scatterbrained Deist. My plan for this blog is for it to serve as my public journal, chronicling my random, constant changing interests, thoughts and wants. So why "The Scatterbrained Deist"? In order to adequately explain, I must introduce myself. I am Ayse, that's pronounced "eye-sha" or just "Ice" to most of my friends and associates and even some of my family call me "Ice" playfully. I am 23 right now and will be 24 August 1st. I have been married for two years to Nigel, my best friend and best lover :). I am an Army brat, and my husband is in the military as well. We are currently stationed in Colorado and have not really decided firmly if we are going to stay here permanently. It's either here or Raleigh, my college town, or one of them... That's another thing about me. I haven't finished college. I have about 60 credits towards a Bachelor's Degree in nothing and I am currently working on an Asso...