The Scatterbrained Deist

I am the modern-day Renaissance woman, smart and creative. It may seem like I have no focus and I can't settle onto one thing, but why should I? I can watch a YouTube video and learn to crochet amigurumi, or put Havana twists in my hair. I could survive in the forest for a couple days at least and I could probably teach a class in... well, just give me something to learn. I have an unquenchable thirst for knowledge, whether it be academic, creative, sexual, or spiritual. The journey is my destination. Don't try to tell me that I need to choose something to do. If I can do anything, why pick only one thing? That has always been the dilemma of my quarter-life crises. "What am I doing? Where am I going?" Well, I'm doing what I want to do and I'm going wherever that happens to take me. It's time to stop trying to live up to what you think your life "should" be like. There is no "should", there is only what is. I am the modern-day Renaissanc

Hi, my name is Ayse (Hi, Ayse)... and I'm a fixer. I've been reading psychology-type books and I learned that we basically end up at the same level of psychological health that our environmental family unit had (not really talking about genetics here). So to paint a picture of how I developed into the person I'm trying to grow out of, we have to look back to childhood. My childhood home was volatile, sort of like a dangerous chemistry experiment that is perfectly safe as long as no one sneezes. My dad had a temper, and it might be pertinent to point out that this was technically my step-dad. My biological father had issues also, but he and my mother divorced shortly after I was born. He didn't miss me much. So my dad came after and loved me and my mom and swept us away to military brat life... and he had a horrible temper. Most days things were fun and happy, but we never knew what exactly might set him off, so we were always on alert. He could come after any one of